Before the race even began, I got this prophetic key. On it was the word NOW. We call it a prophetic key because someone in leadership prays over it and then puts the word on a key for you. We then get to interpret it for ourselves. Basically, it is a way to grow by focusing on one word on the race. Then when we feel as though we have grown in it as much as possible, we can give it to someone else if we feel led to. (This part is not a requirement though) 

As I said, my word is NOW. At first, I was like “oh yeah, be present in the moment, be in the now.” I was thinking it would be hard to be in the Now because I was leaving so much behind. I left my work, my family and friends behind and all the life events that go with that. I had 4 weddings coming up of dear friends that I knew would be hard to miss. Its hard to battle the mindset of the grass is always greener on the other side. But if you think this way, then you will miss out on the people around you and where you are right now. I kept praying into being present on the race and soaking up where I was each month, each day and moment. 

This aspect was going well, and I began being stretched and experiencing growth in other ways. I asked the Lord if there was something else he wanted to tell me through my key that said “Now.” Then the Lord was kindly revealing to me parts of myself that he wanted me to walk in freedom from. One being Fear. Fear has often ruled many aspects of my life.

When we were in Jaco, Costa Rica month one, God told me that I was choosing to partner with fear and scarcity. He told me that I don’t have to do that anymore and that I have the power and authority of what I choose to partner with. He told me I could be free right Now. As we journeyed to Nicaragua, I continued to reflect on gifts that we get to receive right NOW from the Lord when we choose to believe him and His love. This was connected to my key and the Lord said there were many gifts I get to receive NOW and that I get to walk in NOW. Here is a picture I drew from a morning in Nicaragua. 

I definitely felt free that day in Jaco and was thanking God for showing me more in Nicaragua. But I honestly was getting frustrated with how hard it was. Ownership is hard. It takes practice to change your thought patterns and habits you continually fall into. Basically your default patterns. It takes continuous choosing. I kept thinking of Romans 7:15  “For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” Later it says in verse 18 that “For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out.” I was reminded that I need the Lord and his Grace to keep making choices that reflect the change I want to make. 

I said “But God, I want this NOW.” Haha growth can be so slow sometimes. I want my thoughts to be renewed NOW, I want to walk in freedom NOW. 

The Lord whispered “You can, you have a choice!” 

Oof. I wish in that moment He had told me I get to keep choosing and that it takes practice and patience what you choose now in the moment. But He didn’t. He really wanted me to know the power I have over my life. He wanted me to know that there are things that I get to receive right NOW. 

How cool! There are some things I do get to receive and walk in right now, and the Lord has told me I get to walk in them if I choose too. Beautiful. But the above is also true, that I do not always get to receive specific things right now, and I either need to wait or be patient with the healing and the growth process. 

This is my key that I wear each day, and God is teaching me so much about the word NOW. I get to enjoy the NOW, I get to receive NOW, and I get to walk in freedom NOW. For so long I was believing the lie that I am unable to receive things now because I felt unworthy. But no longer. 

So my questions for you is this. Is there a lie you are believing that is preventing you from receiving freedom now? And is there something you can do about it right now? Let me know :) 

Until next time,

<3 Cass